The Threat Of So Much Promise

The threat of so much promise
Used to keep me honest
Not now though, pilgrim
I look back but now I’m so far from it

I used to have a kind of violent desire
A faith in my cause
An undeniable inner fire
Often misguided
And often derided
But hype with pride
And energy that I could always find

Maybe I need to get it back
But it’s hard to want to want it
When I remember now
How I used to be so single-minded
I’m older now, lazy,
Anxious and blindsided
By the slightest of demands
The future may be in my hands
But my hands are soft, shaky,
Milky-white and only ever reaching
For the wine or extra gravy

I don’t know how to suffer for my art anymore
And though I have a little art
I don’t know what I used to suffer for

The threat of so much promise
It has been demolished
And in its place a dull chest pain
A sleepiness, a foggy brain

Fuck me, I’m done in before I’m even thirty
I’ve got to get some go again
This world didn’t used to deserve me
But now I’m just a layman
With a ‘Hey man’
And a stare
And it’s such an effort
Even imagining going anywhere.

The threat of so much promise
And a need for solace
I’ve been laid up too long
But I don’t know if I’ll be back, son.

I’ll try to keep it honest
I can’t make a promise
But there’s still a vicious ambition
And enough bones to get broken on it

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About dcduell

Failed musician. Trying to write for TV. Never sure quite where I'm headed. Serial un-funnyman. I used to do a lot of writing. Sometimes I still do. So I decided to put it on the internet. I'm on Facebook and Twitter. Pretty active on the former, not so much on the latter. Holler at me.
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2 Responses to The Threat Of So Much Promise

  1. I of July says:

    You have a distinctive voice, I’m enjoying reading your work

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